Christmas without you

The Holidays are hard.  I knew that they would be. I thought that this would be our first Christmas with a baby at home. I wish that was the way it is so bad.  I wish that I was buying presents for Ella.  I wish I could hang a stocking for her.  I wish she could get her first picture with Santa.  I wish I could dress her in cute little Christmas dresses.  I could go on for days with my wish list, but I won't.   I can't do the things that I want to be doing with my daughter.  But I really want her to be included in the holidays.  So, like I had posted earlier, we decided to put a little tree at her grave.  This is going to be our new tradition. Jon and I put it out the day after Thanksgiving.  Then my family went after our Thanksgiving dinner (which was actually the following Sunday).  And Jon's family has also added ornaments since then.  I love that everyone spent so much time and thought in the ornaments that they picked for Ella.  Thank you all so much!

From Mommy and Daddy

From Mommy and Daddy

From Mommy and Daddy

From Grandma says"Grandma loves me"

Joel Michael adding Ella's name ornament that he looked so hard for!

From Joel Michael

From Aunt Lorrie and Uncle Joel



From Aunt Lorrie and Uncle Joel



From Aunt Michelle, Uncle Bryan, Travis and Tyler

From Ginny



From Grandad





From my coworker Debbie

I love you Ella!  I miss you so much!