"I will give thanks to the Lord because of His righteousness; I will sing the praises of the name of the Lord Most High." Psalm 7:17
Thanksgiving Day is approaching. If I am honest, I would have to say that for months I have been dreading Thanksgiving Day. November 25th of last year was one of the worst days of my life. It was the day before Thanksgiving. It was the day that we found out that we wouldn't get to keep our baby because she was anencephalic. We had hoped that we could tell our family on Thanksgiving Day if we were having a boy or girl, but we had to call them the day before and give them the devastating news and tell them we wouldn't be leaving the house for Thanksgiving. I can say that I wasn't feeling very thankful last year.
So,a few months ago I looked at the calendar-hoping that Thanksgiving day wouldn't fall on November 25th, but of course it does. That being said, I want this year to be different.
I DO have a lot to be thankful for. These are only a few of those things......
I am thankful for my wonderful husband, who I am so blessed to have in my life.
I am thankful for my wonderful mother, who is always there for me through thick and thin.
I am thankful for my wonderful sister, who is so supportive and such a great friend.
I am thankful for all of my other family members, including Jon's family-they are the best inlaws I could ever ask for.
I am thankful for my Millie, Max and Lucky, who love me and make me smile.
I am thankful for Ella.
I am thankful that God chose me to be Ella's mommy.
I am thankful that God gave me twenty hours to hold her, feel her in my arms, hear her sweet cry, kiss her sweet lips, and touch her beautiful soft skin.
I am thankful that God sent his son to die for my sins, so that one day I will be able to go to heaven and be with Him, and be with my sweet baby girl again!
I love you Ella!
Always
7 years ago
Such a difficult anniversary! I so glad for the many things you have to be thankful for. Hugs! my sweet friend.
ReplyDeleteI will be thinking of you and Jon on Thanksgiving day! I do not think many people could understand how we could give thanks for our sweet little ones and what they gave us this past year, but I completely understand! We are who we are because they came and went. Sending love and hugs sweet friend!
ReplyDeleteHope you have an ok Thanksgiving! It is so hard, but YES, we are so blessed to be mother's of such precious children.
ReplyDeleteI'll be thinking of you, Jon & of course Ella on Thursday.
M.
Penny, my thoughts and prayers will be with you tomorrow! I know it will not be easy. And yes, Ella was such a blessing to your life and continues to be!
ReplyDeleteHow extra tough with it being the first Thanksgiving and the anniversary of D-Day. ((hug))
ReplyDeleteThought of you this last week....could relate with the relationship of the holiday to a day that will always live in your memory in a way that you wish was so, so different.
ReplyDeleteSending you lots of love!
xoxoxo