2010

2010 is almost over.  I can't believe it.  I can't believe how much life has changed in this one year.   Part of me will be happy to watch the clock roll over to midnight tonight, and the other part of me will be really sad.   This year was defintitely the hardest of my life- no other year can even come close enough to compare.  But, it was also filled with so many amazing moments and joy.  I would never give up the tears I have cried this year if that meant I had to give up my time with Ella.

In 2010, I got to spend  four and a half months with Ella happy and safe inside my belly.  I got to feel her grow, and squirm and hiccup.  Then on May 10, 2010, I got to hold a piece of Heaven in my arms for a day- I would never trade that for anything.  I miss those chubby cheeks and beautiful lips so much.  I am so glad that I got to hold those precious little hands and big feet that looked just like her daddy's in my hands. Jon and I looked at some of her pictures last night and talked about all of her precious little features.  It still amazes me that we made such a beautiful little baby.

I hope and pray that 2011 isn't filled with so much heartache. But, I can't look back on 2010 and only think of pain...because I expereinced a lot more than that.  I became mommy to an angel and experienced a love that I can't explain.

I love you Ella!  I miss you so so much!





2010-The year that forever changed our lives and our hearts