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Friday, October 15, 2010

Today Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day.  I had never heard of this until a month or so ago, which means that most people who haven't expreienced the loss of a pregnancy or the loss of a baby probably haven't heard of it either.
     I don't need a day to remind me to remember  Ella.  I think about her all of the time.  But, I do think it is important to raise awaresness that there are so many people who have been through the loss of a child- and that is definitely the hardest thing I have been through in my life. I have met so many mom's who have been through similar situations online, and talking to them has helped me so much.  There are days when I feel like no one gets it, and then I will log onto the computer and read someones blog and see that there are other people feeling the same way right now.  I wish that no one ever had to feel this.  But, connecting with other ladies going through the same situation has given me so much comfort and made me feel not so alone. 
     It makes me sad that people going through an infant loss years ago probably didn't have anyone to talk to who was going through something similar.  I know that my mom was one of these people.  She lost my sister, Chandra, when she was 11 months old.   Chandra was the oldest, and that was before I was born.   I know that it had to be so hard for my mom-and I hate that she had to experience that.  My mom is always there for me when I need her and has been here throughout all of this last year.  Thank you mama- I love you!
     So, today I will be thinking about Ella.  I will be thinking about Chandra.  I will be thinking about all the babies who I have come to know through their mommies this year.

Thank you Shannon for making this pumpkin for Ella!!  I love it!

I love you Ella!!  I miss you so much!


  1. I'd never heard about the day either and agree we need to raise awareness. What a cute pumpkin for Ella!

  2. Sweet Ella, you are so loved and missed!
    Thinking of you guys today...

  3. I will be lighting a candle tonight for you and Ella. I just wrote about this, but the help from the on-line community has helped so incredibly much. It's amazing how perfect strangers and now in a family because of this horrible experience.

  4. Hi there,
    I found you today on Faces of Loss. I am also in GA, and I just lost my daughter, Stella Rose, last Saturday. She had Wolf Hirschorn syndrome, congenital heart defects, and underdeveloped kidneys. She was only 4 lbs at birth. We got to spend 6 amazing days with her before she went to meet Jesus. Your daughter was beautiful, and I admire your courage to carry her to birth. I was told that our daughter may not make it to birth, but she did. I'm thankful that we were both able to meet our daughters. I will keep you guys in my prayers. -Jennifer (

  5. This post is very close to my heart. You wrote about exactly how I feel and what I think a lot of the time. Thank you for putting it all into words.