One of my favorite memories of Ella came during our 32 week ultrasound. That was our third ultrasound. The first two were horrible-those are days that I wish I could forget. The first one was at 16 weeks and six days. That was the horrible day that we found out that Ella had anencephaly. We went into the doctor's office so excited to see our baby for the first time, but left the office devasted. The second one was a week later. We were sent to a perinatologist for a more detailed ultrasound to confirm the anencephaly. Of course, our worst fears were confirmed. We also found out that day that we were indeed having a girl like we had known all along.
Up until the 32 weeks ultrasound, we really had no clue what Ella looked like. The only pictures they gave us from the earlier ones was one of her foot and one of her girl parts. We were so blessed to have an awesome ultrasound tech at our 32 week appt. She did a 3d ultrasound and let us watch Ella wiggle around for 20 minutes or so. I remember seeing what her beautiful face looked like for the first time. It was so bittersweet. She was SO active! She was smacking her lips, playing with the umbilical cord, sucking her fingers and sucking her toes. Seeing how happy and comfortable she was gave me so much peace. I had worried that she may be uncomfortable because of the anencephaly-but that day those fears were put to rest. She looked so happy.
I toted a photo album around in my purse with all of those pictures in it the rest of my pregnancy. I wanted to show her off to the world so bad, but I knew that I would probably have a meltdown if I did. I did, and still do have a hard time talking about her without crying. So, I only showed them to family. So....here they are. Some of my favorite memories captured on ultrasound. (please excuse the format)
This one is of her perfect profile. You can see her big foot.
I love this one. She is smiling or laughing.
Sucking her finger
And, my favorite! showing off those beautiful lips!
We found out that we were pregnant with our first child on August 31, 2009. We were nervous, but very excited. We spent the next few months planning for our future. We knew that our lives would be changed forever when our baby was born. We just never thought it would be changed in this way. On November 25th, we went for our first ultrasound. We were so excited to find out if we were having a boy or a girl (we both felt like it was a girl). Instead of finding out the sex, we found out that our baby had anencephaly. Anencephaly is a fatal neural tube defect in which the part of the tube that forms into the skull and portion of the brain doesn't close. It was the worst day of our lives. We chose to carry our baby to term. We found out at another ultrasound the next week that we were having a girl. We named her Ella Christine. Ella means "bright light", and I can't think of a more perfect name. God blessed us with 20 hours with her after she was born, and she changed our lives forever. I never thought I would want to blog, but now all we want to do is talk about our baby girl.