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Monday, September 6, 2010

One of those days

It has been one of those days (or actually a few of those days). The days that the feeling of missing Ella overwhelms me. I miss her all of the time, but there are days when it just washes over me like a tidal wave. I think it is the time of the year. Everywhere I go I see something or do something that reminds me last year at this time-right after we found out I was pregnant or it makes me think of how I thought things were going to be now. I try not to dwell on how things should be, but that has been so hard the last few days.
I want her here with me. I want to dress her in her Florida Gator booties and hat that we bought her last football season. I want to be taking her to cookouts and family get togethers. I want to hold her again. I want everything to be different than it is.
It is just one of those days that all I can think about is how much I miss her.

I love you Ella! I miss you SO much!

5 comments:

  1. Oh sweet friend, my heart is breaking for you. I know those wants and wishes so well. I will be praying for you. I hope today is a better one. Those tough days seem to knock us off of our feet.

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  2. Sending you a great big hug Penny.

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  3. Hope you are feeling better today! I know some days seem so easy then the hard times hit all over again. Keeping yo in prayers!

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  4. Praying for you during these hard times. We haven't hit any anniversaries yet, but I know they are coming.

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  5. *hugs* I know I haven't been around as much, but still thinking of you and Ella.

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