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Tuesday, August 24, 2010


I have always struggled with big decisions in my life. Well, except for one. I never considered the decision to terminate my pregnancy when Ella was diagnosed with anencephaly. I just knew that that wasn't an an option for me from the beginning. (I am just adding this because I don't want anyone to think that is one of the decisions I am talking about.) That is the one decision in my life that I had complete peace about and never questioned. I was so blessed to have my sweet baby for the time that I did.
Well, I am facing some BIG life changing decisions right now. I have always been a worrier, and when I have to make a decision I always question it and think "but what if?" I am not going over all of the decisions right now, because I really don't feel like I need to put all of my business out there right now. But, I am really struggling with them. I have made lists in my head of pros and cons. I have talked to Jon about it so much his ears are probably hurting, and he is supportive either way. I am praying that God will show me what to do with these big decisions. I wish I would see a sign or someone would just say "This is what you need to do!" I am so scared I am going to make the wrong decision and regret it later. Please, if you think of it, say a prayer that God will show me where I need to go and that I will see it!

I love you Ella! I miss you baby girl!


  1. I will say a prayer for your direction.

    I always say, "Gosh..I just wish God would send me a note or something to tell me what to do! I would totally do it, I just want to know!!!!!"

    Hope the decision comes easier with guidance....I know all about worrying and the what-ifs!

  2. Well, I can't speak for God, but I would like to share something with you that helped me several years back when I was facing a scary move...

    My dad told me..."Remember not all progress is a step forward - sometimes you need to take a step back."


  3. I will most definitely be praying for His direction in your decisions. About three months after we lost Eli, we had some very big decisions to make and like you I was not hearing God's voice about what to do. I remember posting on facebook something like I needed God to take out his loudspeaker because I could not hear him. A friend posted back that maybe He was answering in a still, small voice for a reason. Maybe He wanted me to be still and listen, get alone with Him and pray. Rest friend and listen for that still, small voice. It will be there just when you need it. Big hugs and many prayers. xoxoxo

  4. Praying for you - Dear Penny. For God's guidance in your decisions, for you to see the way that He has laid out for you, and for you to feel His abundant peace about it.

    Hugs, Kara

  5. Praying God will send you a sign and show you the way!

  6. Saying prayers that God will light your way for you. Decisions are definitely hard to make esp when you are leaning both ways. Praying...Praying...Praying. *hugs*