Tuesdays

I hate Tuesdays. Maybe not hate, but they are the hardest. Every Tuesday that passes is a reminder that it has been another week since we lost Ella. I know they are hard for Jon too. He is at work and just sent me a text that said "I am really missing Ella today" It has been five weeks today.
Every week there are three days that roll around and remind my of how long it has been. It is like my new calendar. Every Sunday is another week since Mother's Day...the last day I was still pregnant with Ella, and the night we went to the hospital to get prepped for the c-section. I am so glad that I went past my due date and got to spend my first Mother's Day with Ella; safe inside. Every Monday is another week since Ella was born. Another week has passed since I met my precious daughter and held her in my arms for the first time. And then Tuesday comes. It has been another week since we had to say goodbye.


I know I'll see the sun shine bright
upon my baby's face....
When I finally get to heaven,
all my pain will be erased.

We'll soar the skies together,
as angels two by two.
We'll have a sweet reunion,
this mother's dream come true!
~author unknown


I love you Ella! I miss you so much!