I hate Tuesdays. Maybe not hate, but they are the hardest. Every Tuesday that passes is a reminder that it has been another week since we lost Ella. I know they are hard for Jon too. He is at work and just sent me a text that said "I am really missing Ella today" It has been five weeks today.
Every week there are three days that roll around and remind my of how long it has been. It is like my new calendar. Every Sunday is another week since Mother's Day...the last day I was still pregnant with Ella, and the night we went to the hospital to get prepped for the c-section. I am so glad that I went past my due date and got to spend my first Mother's Day with Ella; safe inside. Every Monday is another week since Ella was born. Another week has passed since I met my precious daughter and held her in my arms for the first time. And then Tuesday comes. It has been another week since we had to say goodbye.
I know I'll see the sun shine bright
upon my baby's face....
When I finally get to heaven,
all my pain will be erased.
We'll soar the skies together,
as angels two by two.
We'll have a sweet reunion,
this mother's dream come true!
~author unknown
I love you Ella! I miss you so much!
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For whatever reason this little poem came to mind as I read your post today...
ReplyDeleteMondays Child
Mondays child is fair of face,
Tuesdays child is full of grace,
Wednesdays child is full of woe,
Thursdays child has far to go,
Fridays child is loving and giving,
Saturdays child works hard for his living,
And the child that is born on the Sabbath day
Is bonny and blithe, and good and gay.
I think Monday and Tuesday's verse fits your little Ella. Monday-she is gorgous! and Tuesday-she is saved by Grace...I see the grace of our Lord when I see her face-I'd bet others do to! ;) What a special little girl!!!
Oh my, another saying comes to mind...
"All God's grace in one little face."
Praying for you this Tuesday!
hugs,
Melissa & Amelia
Thank you so much Melissa!!! That means so much to me!! Monday and Tuesday's verses do fit her perfectly:)
ReplyDeletemany hugs to you tonight and always Penny. Your post tonight was so touching. I am very happy for you that you were able to get to spend your first mother's day with Ella safe in your belly. I know you will treasure that memory forever. You are such a wonderful mother!
ReplyDeletelove and prayers
elena