Happy Birthday my sweet baby girl! I can't believe it has been a whole year since I held you in my arms. Although at times it feels like an eternity. It has been way too long. I have been thinking about you all day and the things that we were doing with you this time last year. About this time last year, you were about to eat for the first time. I wish I could relive those moments with you. I wish I could hold you. I wish I could kiss your sweet lips and touch your soft skin. I remember your sweet baby smell so well, and I promise I even smelled it again one time today.
Daddy and I decided not to have a party or a cake. It just didn't feel right to us without you here. But everyone brought you presents. Leaving them and the cemetary today felt so wrong...even though I know you aren't really there. I know you are having a better birthday in Heaven than we could ever give you here.
I just want you to know that you made me the proudest mommy ever. I miss you and love you more than I could ever say.
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