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Wednesday, April 27, 2011

less than two weeks

Two weeks from yesterday will be Ella's birthday.  It really hit me yesterday that it is right around the corner.  I can't believe that this day is approaching so quickly.  I am already struggling with it and it isn't even here.  I am so torn about what I want to do for Ella's birthday.  I want to celebrate her life, but I don't know how I want to do that.  It will be such a bittersweet day.  I just don't think I can have a cake or anything that would be like a party.  I just think it will be too hard for us.  Because I know all I will be able to think about is how bad I wish she were here for her birthday party. Why does every decision have to be so hard?

I can't believe it has been a year since we were preparing to meet our sweet baby girl.

I love you Ella!  I miss you so much!

4 comments:

  1. Hugs Hun!!! I'm struggling a lot lately too. It is really unbelievable that it has been almost an entire year since we both welcomed, held, and said goodbye to our baby girls. Thinking of you a lot as we approach their birthdays.

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  2. Tim & I had a hard time agreeing on what to do! I'm not sure that we have come to a decision yet. At first I thought I wanted a party or another blood drive but Tim just wasn't up for it. I think we are just going to go to the zoo (she has a memorial butterfly there) and spend time as a family. Next year we might go on a vacation..there's a place in Florida called Amelia Beach...

    I will continue to pray for you as you approach this milestone. Blessings!

    Love Ya!

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  3. This is just not a "party" I am looking forward to. I am so thankful for her life and want to do something but nothing seems to be the "right" thing. As we prepare for Olivia's one year, I always think of Ella and Karrine, {hugs} to you!

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  4. I know you will plan the perfect day to remember Ella! It is so hard. Praying for you and sending love and hugs your way!

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