Two weeks from yesterday will be Ella's birthday. It really hit me yesterday that it is right around the corner. I can't believe that this day is approaching so quickly. I am already struggling with it and it isn't even here. I am so torn about what I want to do for Ella's birthday. I want to celebrate her life, but I don't know how I want to do that. It will be such a bittersweet day. I just don't think I can have a cake or anything that would be like a party. I just think it will be too hard for us. Because I know all I will be able to think about is how bad I wish she were here for her birthday party. Why does every decision have to be so hard?
I can't believe it has been a year since we were preparing to meet our sweet baby girl.
I love you Ella! I miss you so much!
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