Two weeks from yesterday will be Ella's birthday. It really hit me yesterday that it is right around the corner. I can't believe that this day is approaching so quickly. I am already struggling with it and it isn't even here. I am so torn about what I want to do for Ella's birthday. I want to celebrate her life, but I don't know how I want to do that. It will be such a bittersweet day. I just don't think I can have a cake or anything that would be like a party. I just think it will be too hard for us. Because I know all I will be able to think about is how bad I wish she were here for her birthday party. Why does every decision have to be so hard?
I can't believe it has been a year since we were preparing to meet our sweet baby girl.
I love you Ella! I miss you so much!
Always
7 years ago
Hugs Hun!!! I'm struggling a lot lately too. It is really unbelievable that it has been almost an entire year since we both welcomed, held, and said goodbye to our baby girls. Thinking of you a lot as we approach their birthdays.
ReplyDeleteTim & I had a hard time agreeing on what to do! I'm not sure that we have come to a decision yet. At first I thought I wanted a party or another blood drive but Tim just wasn't up for it. I think we are just going to go to the zoo (she has a memorial butterfly there) and spend time as a family. Next year we might go on a vacation..there's a place in Florida called Amelia Beach...
ReplyDeleteI will continue to pray for you as you approach this milestone. Blessings!
Love Ya!
This is just not a "party" I am looking forward to. I am so thankful for her life and want to do something but nothing seems to be the "right" thing. As we prepare for Olivia's one year, I always think of Ella and Karrine, {hugs} to you!
ReplyDeleteI know you will plan the perfect day to remember Ella! It is so hard. Praying for you and sending love and hugs your way!
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