We went on our summer vacation last week. We spent the week at Mexico Beach, Fl. with Jon's family. It was just what we needed. It felt so good to relax, especially after the good news we received earlier in the week (the good ultra sound results). I enjoyed it so much more than last year. I can still remember how miserable I was at that point. It was around six weeks after we lost Ella. I thought getting away would help some, but it really didn't.
Vacation was great this year. But I still miss her so much. I don't think I will ever go on a vacation or enjoy things with family and not think that someone is missing. There were families all around us again with their little girls. That always gets me. I guess it always will. The second I see a Dad and a little girl, I think I wish I could see Jon with Ella playing on the beach, and the same with mom's and their baby girls. I will never not think about Ella at those times. Oh, and once again we saw a dragonfly on the beach almost everyday.
I love you Ella! I miss you so much!
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